Why Does This Weariness Hit Me Again?
Updated: Dec 8, 2023
This is too much??
Have you ever felt that? That's the weariness of grief. Jeremiah 31:25 explains a promise that a times seem to allude me: “For I have satiated the weary soul.” The word weary in Hebrew is ayeph which has the idea of weariness (big help), like a heavy weight, it is a picture of being thirsty and drinking your fill of water. It is also a picture of leather straps that have become so dried out that they are no longer flexible. You need to saturate or ayeph them so they will become flexible.
Is that what you need God to do for you? I sure needed, especially when my soul has had a enough and I have gone about as far as I can go. I carried about all I believed I could. I just need God to carry me!
At times I felt like Psalm 88, "O Lord, the God of my salvation, I have cried out by day and in the night before You. Let my prayer come before You; Incline Your ear to my cry! For my soul has had enough troubles, and my life has drawn near to Sheol." (Ps 88:1-3). The last word Sheol is translated as grave, death and in some variations, the edge of hell.
Whoever wrote this had been praying for quite a while, and in the midst of challenges and difficulties that left him overwhelmed and spent bothy physically and spiritually. He is consumed. His prayer is a plea of desperation, and an urgent cry for God to intervene.
Psalm 88 was not written by David, but one of the sons of Korah, the singers of the Old Testament, nothing like a sad song in a weary land. It is noted to be the saddest of the Psalms. Now, it does not mean tht those who wrote it lost their faith or lost hope in God. If you read my journals, you would see there have been some days that I was deeply despaired. This could be one of those times in the Psalms--maybe someone retreated to a lonely place and then wrote their heart out. There is frustration. There is even isolation. I have retreated before and then advanced thereafter.
Do the words of this Psalm meet you where you are? Here's the promise , God said to Jeremiah who found himself in exhaustion: "For I will satisfy the weary soul, and every languishing soul I will replenish." Jeremiah 31:25. The Message Bible reads: "I refresh tired bodies; I restore tired souls."
Thankfully, my problems and I never get too big for God to carry (even if it felt that way). I appreciate the promise of God to Isaiah: "even to your old age, I will be the same, and even to your graying year I will bear you! I have done it, and I will carry you; and I will bear you and I will deliver you." Isaiah 46:4
If you are emotionally, physically, and spiritually exhausted in weariness in grief, find a quiet spot. Relax your body, and rest your soul into the heart of the Lord. He knows when your soul has had enough before you do. He is willing and able to carry you.
Remember this promise from Hebrews 4:15a: "For we do not have a High Priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses."